Saturday, October 30, 2010

What does the sky look like?

"What does the sky look like?" he asked as I walked into the kitchen.
I gave him a smile and turned around to plop our coffee down on the counter.

"Oh, a little cloudy, some patches of blue."

I was glad that my back was turned, as in truth I hadn't really noticed. Why did he ask me this question?

Logically it was probably because he hadn't ventured out of the house in the past 2 or 3 years. Or maybe he just wanted to know if we would be able to enjoy our morning coffee on the deck, soaking up the early summer sunshine. Some days even in summer, it might be too cool, especially if the sky was overcast. Or too windy and he'd have trouble catching his breath.

More than likely, he just wanted to have some sense of the outside world. A world he had almost left behind.
Now, I'll never know.

Every day after that, however, I made sure to look up at the sky as I was running errands, so I could tell him what it looked like. And as I became more aware of the sky, I also became more aware of our environment.

Over the years David would make a comment like: "There's an east wind blowing." And I would look at him as if to say, "Who cares?"
Now I take more notice.


I think that being aware of the ebb and flow of one's natural environment is to feel connected, and David must have needed the strength of that connection.

22 comments:

Beth Niquette said...

What a precious post. How wonderful of you to have sensed his need for the sky.

((hugs)) You are an amazing woman.

mxtodis123 said...

What a lovely post. I've missed you, Wendy.
Mary

Hilary said...

Such a lovely post, Wendy. I think he's still making sure that you're connected.

Betsy from Tennessee said...

Oh how I love this post, Wendy.... I know that you are connected ---not only with the world (and the sky) --but also with David... God Bless You.
Hugs,
Betsy

Cheryl said...

Wendy, deep in my heart I know I would have like David. I understand this post so clearly, it is just so bitter sweet.
You will hold this close, as you journey forward, David was a special man.
Tku for sharing this with me, I found it so very moving.


When you visited you asked the age of our house....it dates back to around 1345. So the chimney is a lot younger than the rest of the property. I value its historic value, also those that have walked before me and have loved the house as much as I do. Everyone who visits says there is something special about our home. It is a calm and peaceful place to be. We have a historian researching the property......hope I have not bored you too much.

Think of you often....

amelia said...

Beautiful!!

It's always a good thing to be connected to our environment and your precious hubby knew this.

If I spend a day inside, I miss the outdoors.

Rose said...

There is so much in life that we take for granted. I know I have, and still do, I suppose, for too long. David has given you a gift, Wendy, by helping you to be aware of the natural world and its beauty. And now it's a connection with him as well.

Hope you are doing well.

Morning Glories in Round Rock said...

Such a sweet post, Wendy. I think every time you look at the sky, or feel the direction of the wind, a part of you will feel a connection to David. It always amazes me how we are changed by the people in our lives.

kanak7 said...

Wendy, so beautifully penned. I'm sorry I'm late in coming here. It's amazing how a conversation like that can make you more aware of the sights around you. Take care.~ Kanak

Celia said...

Good to hear from you Wendy. Such a telling post. We learn so much from those in our lives and mostly I don't seem to notice until later. Time to look up! Hugs to you.

Barb said...

Hello Wendy, I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like your memories and the lessons you learned together while he was ill are giving you peace of mind and heart. Take Care.

Liara Covert said...

Love the post. Reminds me how some people ask questions like, "what colour is God's skin?" And then move onto sense energy and the essence of being are indescribable in human terms. Fun to feel one's way back to the timeless truth. To awaken to inner knowing is refreshing.

kanak7 said...

Dear Wendy, it's me again. This is just to let you know that you're often in my thoughts. And I'm so glad whenever you stop by my blog. Thank you so much!

Our days are still hot but the evenings are so pleasant. Earlier I would always talk about the cold of winter but reading about your freezing temps, 'cold' is a word that I don't use often!!!

Take care. I'll 'see' you soon!

Nina P. said...

It might of been his way of preparing you for what he knew. Letting you know that through these things, you were, are and will always be connected. Such strength and beauty in these words. May all your senses be filled with connections, memories and Love. He is with you always.
Blessings to you and yours. Love and Light, Nina P

Wendy said...

Hi Nina,
I have often thought that he was preparing me in many different ways. Just a brush of a feeling, a gentle nudging, a brief rush of "knowing" that both of us consciously did not realize or put forth. And now looking back, of course, the little "preparations" become clear.
Thank you for your wise words.

Hi all - I am constantly amazed with your understanding of my feelings as I post. Often I just need to express myself, but find with your comments little jewels of wisdom, of clarity, to help me find deeper meaning in my life.

Thanks to everyone for stopping by and taking the time to leave comments which I know are straight from the heart.
Your friendship means so much to me.
Love and Light

Liara Covert said...

As Kahlil Gibran astutely reminds us, we lead each other to the threshold of the mind. It is from here we awaken to opportunities to align with the love energy we are. Reality never leaves us though humans often choose to turn away for indeterminate periods to experience contrast and expansion.

Q said...

Dear Wendy,
Your David was a wise man. He knew about the magic of nature.
I am so happy you have all these wonderful memories in your heart. I smiled when you wrote "David must have needed the strength of that connection."
You and David will always be connected.
Namaste,
Sherry

Shammickite said...

I read on another blog that you have just had a birthday on the 1st. I had one too, on the 4th.... I hope yours was as happy as mine was.

CherylK said...

Such a touching post, Wendy. You are truly gifted.

Nancy said...

Very soulful, Wendy. I will be sure to look at the sky every day.

Grayquill said...

I was taken back in this post and by what we miss. We hyper-focus on our all important lives and then David saw what we missed. The wind coming from the east. Hmmmm.... I have no idea at this moment if a breeze is even up. I think I will go outside and sit and take notic of the sky and see which way the wind is coming.

Maggie May said...

The sky is full of different moods and colours and never the same twice and yet, how often do we look at it? I think that it is worth a glance or two.
Lovely reflective post.
Maggie X

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